LGBTQ

A Year in the Life of Brie’s Transition

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Chapter 1:  I am Brie

My name is Brie Michelle Elizabeth, and I am a transgender woman. I have been on hormone replacement therapy, otherwise known as HRT, for six months now, I have legally changed my name, and in six more months I will begin the process of applying for, and then going for gender-affirming surgery. But I’m getting ahead of myself, let’s rewind back a bit to before all of that, shall we? Back to when my birth name was still my legal name before I was on HRT before anyone knew I was transgender even, let’s begin there.

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Like every trans person, my story is unique. The stereotype of always knowing that you were in the wrong body, that you always knew was not my truth. I didn’t start to seriously question my gender and realize my identity until my late twenties. There were no “signs” or “hints” that tipped me off, I just sort of clued in one day and then spent the following months denying it to myself until I had finally had enough and decided to embrace it. That day was December 31, 2015, and was the day I chose myself, and my own happiness; the day I finally began living.

Photo courtesy of Brie

Embracing and accepting my womanhood was like turning on a light in a dark room that you didn’t even know was dark, to begin with. Suddenly my whole life made sense, all my quirks, my habits, my likes and dislikes, how I liked to dress and present myself, my femininity, all of it finally made sense. Fast forward a few months now to July of 2016, and that is where the real journey begins. I made a promise to myself that month to be as open, and as honest about my transition as possible, so after seeing a therapist and receiving my gender dysphoria diagnosis, I logged onto Facebook and came out as transgender to literally everyone.

Brie’s coming out Facebook post: “

My dear family and friends, I have something I would like to share with you all.

Most of you already know this news, and the rest of you will most certainly not be shocked by this revelation at all, but it needs to be shared anyways. Over the past two weeks, I’ve been thinking of how to word this post, of how long or short it should be, how much do I share exactly? There’s a lot to consider because this is quite possibly the most personal thing about myself that I will ever share. In the end, I decided that I’ll only tell you what you need to know. The important things.

I am Transgender. I am a Trans-woman. I am a woman.

I know, super shocking, right? Yet somehow, I kind of was shocked when I first started realizing I was in fact, transgender, and not male or gender-queer. My gender has always been something I’ve questioned and struggled to define my whole life. Literally my whole life, but that’s a different story for a different day. I’m not trying to write a novel right now.

If you feel offended or upset that you’re finding out through Facebook, I apologize for making you feel that way, but there are too many people to have this conversation with, and I didn’t particularly want to “come out” a whole bunch of times. I’d rather everyone know all at once.

My life and my appearance will change quite drastically, and you’re going to have questions. Most of them will very likely be personal questions, so here’s my answer to those now: what I may or may not be changing about my body is no one’s business but my own. You may not ask me about it. If I choose to share it with you I will. So far no one actually has asked me this, other than my parents but they, quite obviously, are an exception to this.

This next piece of information is very important so please read carefully. My name is Brie, and I am a woman. DO NOT call me by my birth name, or by male pronouns.This shouldn’t be new; I have been going by Brie and by female pronouns for over a year now if even my parents can call me Brie, and by female pronouns than you can too.

I am so grateful that in a world full of hate and oppression for anyone that’s remotely different in any way, I have been blessed with such amazing parents and family members and friends. You are all the reason I am able to stand so tall and be myself so openly in this world that would rather I hide myself or not exist at all. Your support always has and will always mean the world to me.

Stay fabulous,

Brie xoxo

What followed that life changing decision was nothing short of amazing, and almost something out of a fairy-tale. A dream scenario for all within the LGBTQ+ community: every single person within my family and circle of friends accepted me with open arms. My entire family surprised me with the book; I’d Know You Anywhere My Love, filled with messages of love and support a few weeks later at our family reunion camping weekend. Come September, and my name was legally changed to Brie, and then a few weeks after that, I began hormone therapy on October 3, 2016. What I was lucky enough to achieve in the span of a few months, is what some trans people spend years trying to achieve. Over the months that followed, little things would happen: my breasts started to grow, I began looking more female, but most importantly, I finally began to feel like myself.

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People have often asked me what hormone therapy feels like, how has it felt being on hormones and physically transitioning my body? Well, the answer is simple, it doesn’t really feel like anything. I mean sure, you get hot flashes or cold flashes, you’re a little more emotional, parts of your body are a little sore or more tender than before, but it doesn’t really feel like anything. And let me tell you, even if it did, it’s much better than what I felt before I was on them. The sadness and confusion that plagued me for years are finally gone, I’m free. Freer now than I have ever been in my life. I’m happier than I have ever been in my life, and what a gift is that?

That’s where the story ends for now, but my journey is far from over. There is much, much more for me to do, and achieve, triumphs to celebrate, losses to mourn, and I invite you all to experience ever single heartbreaking, breathtaking, joyous, beautiful moment with me. Until next time!

Stay Fabulous. XOXO.

 

 

Brie Chapter 2 – Transition 101: The Basics

 

 

Brie Michelle Elizabeth

I am a trans woman, millennial, cat mother, wine enthusiast, and in a very serious long-term relationship with coffee. When I’m not filming for the TV show, “Knock, Knock, Ghost!”, I’m struggling to apply lipstick without it getting on my teeth. Follow along as I blossom into my true self.